Mortification

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....I hate hipsters. And let me tell you. This one meeting reminded me why I left animation industry and broke off nearly all contact with my cohort. :p

I want to trust and like Singaporeans who animate. I really do.

But whenever I go and try and mingle.Every time, I lose a bit of my faith in humanity.

What happened this afternoon was like my three very long years in my alma matter. Ignored, stared at and treated as invisible.

...How bad was my social life. The only friends I call friend and am willing to call friend are the lecturers and Digimitsu from the alma matter.

Working at traditional painting with the right equipment was great.  But the sheer level of pretentiousness and cliqueness and circleness....Man. I remember. I remember now.

I remember doing all the crap work , like helping the lecturers clean up the shit while they goofed off, I remember being left out. And I remember everyone being in their own little world. Just observing others from a distance, for the artses. And to me, that's really not living. I love making connections , learning about others, sharing. I remember all the societal niceties and hidden beneath, a blade that strikes when your back is turned.

I don't give a crap if you are a dishwasher, a rubbish cleaner or whatever. As long as you are kind, you are friendly and you have humanity in you. I can't stand unkind people.I can't stand people who judge peroid,  because I have no time to waste on such nonsense.

I hate people who only are nice because they want something out of you.ESPECIALLY loathe.

Fish that. If I am nice to you. It is cause you are a grade A nice guy .

If I am an a**h*le to you and these days I am willing to turn nasty.

You goofed up. Either you screwed me over one too many for me to ever forgive or just an a**h*le.

I used to get angry.

These days I just leave. 

 But today really bummed me out honestly because now I know I cannot find real friends within animation.

No.

I knew that all along.

...I just was deluding myself.

And have to venture else where to find in real life friends.

The board photos I took will be up tomorrow. Ta, loves.

 
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I know how you feel. I can't even talk about all the different ways I struggle to connect with my collegues. Lets start with monetary differences first and explain I was homeless for a few portions of my university schooling. I did not blossom under the pressure, I panicked and drown in my own anxiety. I swam to shore after graduation but still struggle to reconnect with everyone else on the cruise ship they called home. I didn't have money for appropriate art materials, I didn't have money to go out to eat with others, or to go to events to talk to recruiters, or time off from work, and rent always comes first and every minor setback becomes a major setback as things snowball downhill. hipsters are very confident in their success, and they only share with the successful. I could go on. lets just say I have a few very close friends who look past all that nonsense I'm very happy to have.