BubbleDriver

To all my friends. Over the course of the next few days , I will be deleting a ton of my artworks. I have discovered that despite the wonderful Deviantart adminds reinstating my account, the problem is that a lot of these artworks have weird tags. I feel so horrified that I can not even stand to keep said artworks but have decided to do a purge and reupload of the bulk of my gallery. I will be informing of you all kind enough to favorite my artwork the reasosn of why I have chosen to start purging one by one .So please don't be terrified if you see my artworks missing and a mostly blank gallery as most of my work now will be in storage aside from my comics.

I hope you guys can support my decision and am as always appreciative of your support over these past decade and hope we can continue to be great friends over the next few!

My dear buddies, I hope this journal entry finds you well. Today is a wonderful sunny day here in Singapore, and the sunlight is streaming through the trees in such a magical way. Today was a wonderful sunny day here in Singapore.

I woke up feeling a bit anxious, but I remembered to take my anxiety medicine and managed to walk outside the house without any worry about what people would think of me or my recent outbreak of pimples. It was a small victory for me, but it meant a lot.

I decided to go to the library to distract myself and found some amazing books from the free book corner. Reading always helps me escape from my negative thoughts and worries. After spending some time at the library, I went back home and cooked my family and myself some pasta with veggies in a delicious chicken broth. Cooking has been a therapeutic activity for me lately, and it helps me relax and clear my mind.

I must admit that I still have intrusive thoughts about feeling worthless and believing that my family would be better off without me. I often struggle with feeling like a burden, but I am trying to take it one day at a time. I continue to eat my medicine and seek solace in the little joys of daily life.

I want to thank you all for your unwavering support and love. Your messages of encouragement and understanding mean the world to me, and I am grateful to have you all by my side during this journey.Take care and remember to be kind to yourselves.

With much love and gratitude, Bubs! <3

Dear bubble friends, I wanted to take a moment to thank you all for your support during this difficult time in my life. Two days ago, I was stopped from attempting to end my life by my parents, who stayed up all night to make sure I was safe. They urged me to seek help, and I was diagnosed with major depression, anxiety, an adjustment disorder, and autism. The cost for this already cost me a pretty penny and for the necessary medication. But finally, I have also been finally, formally diagnosed with severe ADHD, and while I have been testes highly positive for autism and it was recommended to get tested for autism at the Autism centre as further testing at the actual National centre in Singapore will open up resources for me as in they will put me in a job that is friendly to someone with my condition as well as introduce me to IRL people with the same traits ...The cost is something my family nor I cannot afford at this time. Despite the challenges I am facing, I am determined to hold on and keep fighting. I recently had a breakthrough with my HR department, who finally took my concerns seriously and have offered a compromise. I will be meeting with them on Monday, and I am hopeful that things will start to look up. I want to thank all of you for your support during this challenging time. Your kind words and encouragement mean the world to me. I am determined to keep fighting and hold on for as long as possible. I know the road ahead may be tough, but I am grateful to have such a supportive community behind me. Thank you all for being there for me. I will keep you updated on my journey as I continue to navigate through these obstacles. Remember, it’s okay to not be okay, and it’s important to reach out for help when you need it. You are not alone. Thank you all for being a part of my journey and for standing by me during this challenging time. With gratitude,

Dear friends,

I hope this message finds you well. Today, I wanted to share something personal with all of you, as you are not just my supporters, my dear friends, but also a part of my artistic journey.

I find myself grappling with a mix of emotions. My heart feels heavy, weighed down by the recent turn of events. It's a difficult truth to accept, but I can't ignore it any longer.

I had a boyfriend.

I also got dumped.

My childhood best friend, someone who once meant the world to me, has ghosted me. He became my boyfriend again after reconnecting, but our relationship has been a whirlwind of on and off moments. I didn’t dare tell you guys as we weren’t official and I was truthfully never certain. Perhaps I just hoped for something that never was. Point is. Now, he's vanished completely from my life after a road trip he took to a convention.

It leaves a gaping hole in my heart, dear friends, an ache that is difficult to put into words. I can't help but question everything – the memories, the laughter, the promises made. Did they mean nothing to him? Was it all just an illusion I held onto for far too long? It's painful to confront the possibility that I may have been blindsided by my own desires and affections.

However, in the midst of this emotional turbulence, I have made a decision to shift my focus entirely towards my artwork. Art has been my solace and the one thing that has always brought me immense joy and purpose. It is my way of expressing my emotions, thoughts, and experiences with all of you.

Today, I made a choice: a choice to gather the shattered fragments of my heart and to focus on what truly ignites my soul – my comics.

Art …My comics have always been my sanctuary, a realm where I can express my deepest thoughts and emotions without fear or judgment. It has been my constant companion through the ups and downs of life. Now, more than ever, it calls out to me, begging for my undivided attention.

Perhaps this is the universe's way of reminding me to prioritize my passion, to channel my energy into something greater than the fleeting what may be’s in life.

As I dip my brush into colorful paint, the colors dance across the canvas, telling stories of resilience, hope, and dreams. Each stroke brings to life stories from my dreams . My artwork is a reflection of my true self , of the beauty I find in the most unexpected places, of stories I hear that I think are pretty cool . It's time I embrace it wholeheartedly.

I want to assure you that this setback will not hinder my artistic growth or my commitment to sharing my creations with you. In fact, I am more determined than ever to pour my heart and soul into my work. By channeling my energy into my art, my stories, I hope to find healing, rediscover myself, and connect with all of you on a deeper level.

The pain lingers, my dear friends, and it may take time to heal from this heartbreak. But as the colors merge and blend on the digital canvas in front of me, I find solace and a sense of purpose. I will no longer allow myself to be lost in the echoes of unanswered messages or the ghosts of someone who chose to leave my life. Instead, I will pour my heart and soul into my art, evolving and growing with each stroke.

This year, I shall make a commitment to myself, to embrace this newfound freedom and independence. I rediscover the strength within me and forge ahead on my artistic journey, unburdened by the weight of unrequited love. My art will become my voice, my sanctuary, and my salvation. And in doing so, I will find the healing and self-discovery that I seek.

Until next time, I embark on this new chapter . I shall pour my heartbreak into my comics , my stories transforming lingering pain into hope, into happy endings for my characters.I will give myself a happy ending. Even if I have to draw it with my own two hands then build one with someone else whom I thought could have been my world.

Your unwavering support and encouragement have inspired me to keep pushing my boundaries as an artist, and I am incredibly grateful for that. Your presence and appreciation mean the world to me, and I promise to keep bringing you more of my best efforts and creations.

I kindly request your understanding and patience during this transition period in my personal life. I may not be able to respond to messages and I may sometimes lag (Okay, this part happens a lot because of my crap-oh job.)) As promptly as before, but rest assured that I will read and appreciate every single one of them.

Thank you all for being a part of my artistic journey and for continuously motivating me to create. Your support gives me the strength to move forward and embrace this new chapter in my life.

Yours creatively,

Bubbles

When I was a little girl, around 13 years old, I was introduced to deviantart by my more worldly cousin and I have never looked back. The dream of mine someday, top being making a ton of friends and finding out more about their lives on their side of the globe, was to create an artwork that would merit me a daily deviation.

In the early 2000s , to have been awarded a daily deviation was akin of getting an Oscar for artists, at least on Deviantart .It still is , honestly. Though my hopes definitely faded away as each year passed .But lo.

After a very terrible day of me getting harassed, of being utterly beaten down by my 'lovely' colleagues , dealing with my Boss from hell from my very miserable day job that pays the bill and puts a roof over my family's head and trudging home afgter a 15 hour work day....

I logged in and was amused to see someone commenting on a comic cover of an upcoming series I am planning to launch possibly next year that I had been awarded a daily deviation on it.

That is till after ten minutes of scrolling and attempting to find the proof as multiple congratulations flooded my inbox from my peers and to my confusion for I could not see and have never received anything so prestigious and I am terrible at anything new...

I saw it.

I am at present over the moon.

The kid who once dreamed of having drawn something that would have her artwork featured on this site that has brought me much joy and so many wonderful friends is still screaming for joy.

I do apologize if this is in poor taste and I am truthfully , crowing like a rooster. But I am so happy, so I do beg pardon for this display. Needless to say, I am definitely pleased to say this has propelled me to make 'Unsele' the comic series to be launched next year!

My dad had a stroke and fell today, fracturing bone. He is 65 years old this year.

The whole family is in shock.

I will ...probably update more soon. I just want to say, that this experience , while nightmareish experience highlighted to me the frailty of this mortal coil.My dad isn't invincible, I am technically the head of the house now annnd worse of all...

I've been increasingly unhappy at my current day job , which takes me away from my family for long spells of time and asks a lot from me.

Art has been sustaining me , but it seems I may be making a push earlier then expected to get into it as a full time gig.

But I am at a loss.

I was planning to launch two 'easy' comic readers called Bub the Barbarian and Bub eats Singapore as well as keeping up the current spiel of fanart because so many people love the fanart I've been drawing and it makes me happy drawing it.

So uh, any advise would be very appreciated ! Again. I know I keep zig-zagging and it is frsutrating for you guys on me pausing to make the big jump, but as I am the sole breadwinner and oldest , I do hope you can forgive my trepidation.

Hope y'all doin' better! *hugs*