BubbleDriver

Hey there, my lovely friends,

Today was quite an eventful day for me. I made lunch for my family (I start early and cook enough to feed the family for both lunch and dinner .) and then had to take a long journey to get art supplies for my younger brother. Along the way, I encountered a little bird inside the train station. It was a strange sight, but somehow it resonated with me.

Singapore has been experiencing a heat wave lately, and the muggy heat made me feel a little suffocated. As I watched the bird being shooed out by the station staff, I couldn't help but feel a twinge of sadness. It was like the bird and I were both seeking shelter, only to be pushed out again.

In a way, I feel like that bird, constantly seeking and hoping for a safe haven, only to be let down. I recently found a job after a period of joblessness, but due to my mental health issues and the repeated abuse by my boss and coworkers, I find myself jobless once again. Life has a funny way of throwing curveballs at us, doesn't it?

But despite all the challenges, I found solace in helping my mum with her shopping load as I met up with her to relieve her of shopping for the week's worth of food we as in her and me need to cook. She's getting older now and needs a helping hand, and I'm grateful to be able to do that for her. As I returned home, I couldn't help but reflect on the ups and downs of life.

So here's to embracing the unpredictable nature of life, finding moments of joy in the midst of chaos, and always looking out for those who need us. Thanks for being a part of my journey, my dear buddies. Until next time.

With love and resilience, Bub~ <3 #lifeupdate #depression #mentalhealthawareness

Dear friends,

I wanted to share with you all what has been going on with my work situation , which has been nothing short of a roller-coaster ride.

My bosses, whom I affectionately refer to as "challenging individuals" (let's keep it classy), have been making my life a living hell. They dragged their feet on transferring me to a different department, despite my continuous pleas. It wasn't until my parents threatened to involve the member of Parliament that they finally agreed to let me go. Turns out, they had no intention of helping me at all and were just baiting me along. It's been a tough pill to swallow, to say the least.

I am absolutely crushed and gutted by this turn of events, especially considering the additional struggles I have been facing with my mental health. Being diagnosed with anxiety, depression, ADHD, and receiving a high score on the autism test has been overwhelming. The cost of all these tests only adds to my paranoia and stress.

But through it all, I have been turning to my faith for strength. I recently borrowed a book called 'The Gospel of Mental Health' from the library, and one piece of advice that stood out to me was to count my blessings. One of my biggest blessings has been the support of my family and you, my online friends.

With the help of medication, I have finally regained my ability to sleep after weeks of struggling. I have also found my passion for drawing and life again, rather than wishing for death, even though those intrusive thoughts still creep up on me at times. I am grateful for the comfort and support that you all provide, and I hope to continue relying on that in the days ahead.

Thank you for being a source of strength for me during this challenging time.

With love and gratitude, Bubs! <3 #journal #dailyupdate #mentalhealthawareness

Dear friends,

I sit here on this rainy day, listening to the soft pitter-patter of the rain outside my window. While the uncertainty of my future and the stress of dealing with my supervisor weighs on my mind, there is a strange sense of peace that settles over me as I listen to the rain. It reminds me of Yubaba's bath house in Spirited Away - a place of magic and wonder, where anything is possible.

I can't help but imagine myself as a harried worker in that fantastical bath house, surrounded by quirky spirits and whimsical creatures. The thought brings a shadow of a smile to my face, despite the heaviness in my heart. It's a reminder that even in the darkest of times, there is still room for imagination and the remembrance of innocent joy.

As I continue to struggle with my depression and anxiety and the uncertainty of my future, I find solace in the simple pleasures of life - like the sound of rain on a gloomy day. It's in these moments that I remember that there is beauty all around us, even in the midst of our struggles.

I long for the day when my supervisor finally agrees to meet with Human resources to discuss my placement to another department, or perhaps even allow me to resign. But until that day comes, I will continue to find refuge in the little moments of peace that come my way - like the rain on my window, and the imaginary world of Yubaba's bath house and the warmth of my family, of my friends.

Thank you for being on this journey with me, dear friends. Your support and love mean more to me than you'll ever know.

With gratitude and love, Bub.

My dear buddies, I hope this journal entry finds you well. Today is a wonderful sunny day here in Singapore, and the sunlight is streaming through the trees in such a magical way. Today was a wonderful sunny day here in Singapore.

I woke up feeling a bit anxious, but I remembered to take my anxiety medicine and managed to walk outside the house without any worry about what people would think of me or my recent outbreak of pimples. It was a small victory for me, but it meant a lot.

I decided to go to the library to distract myself and found some amazing books from the free book corner. Reading always helps me escape from my negative thoughts and worries. After spending some time at the library, I went back home and cooked my family and myself some pasta with veggies in a delicious chicken broth. Cooking has been a therapeutic activity for me lately, and it helps me relax and clear my mind.

I must admit that I still have intrusive thoughts about feeling worthless and believing that my family would be better off without me. I often struggle with feeling like a burden, but I am trying to take it one day at a time. I continue to eat my medicine and seek solace in the little joys of daily life.

I want to thank you all for your unwavering support and love. Your messages of encouragement and understanding mean the world to me, and I am grateful to have you all by my side during this journey.Take care and remember to be kind to yourselves.

With much love and gratitude, Bubs! <3

Dear bubble friends, I wanted to take a moment to thank you all for your support during this difficult time in my life. Two days ago, I was stopped from attempting to end my life by my parents, who stayed up all night to make sure I was safe. They urged me to seek help, and I was diagnosed with major depression, anxiety, an adjustment disorder, and autism. The cost for this already cost me a pretty penny and for the necessary medication. But finally, I have also been finally, formally diagnosed with severe ADHD, and while I have been testes highly positive for autism and it was recommended to get tested for autism at the Autism centre as further testing at the actual National centre in Singapore will open up resources for me as in they will put me in a job that is friendly to someone with my condition as well as introduce me to IRL people with the same traits ...The cost is something my family nor I cannot afford at this time. Despite the challenges I am facing, I am determined to hold on and keep fighting. I recently had a breakthrough with my HR department, who finally took my concerns seriously and have offered a compromise. I will be meeting with them on Monday, and I am hopeful that things will start to look up. I want to thank all of you for your support during this challenging time. Your kind words and encouragement mean the world to me. I am determined to keep fighting and hold on for as long as possible. I know the road ahead may be tough, but I am grateful to have such a supportive community behind me. Thank you all for being there for me. I will keep you updated on my journey as I continue to navigate through these obstacles. Remember, it’s okay to not be okay, and it’s important to reach out for help when you need it. You are not alone. Thank you all for being a part of my journey and for standing by me during this challenging time. With gratitude,